Med Down! Med Down!

I’ve decided to stop my medication. My husband doesn’t think I should. I am on the edge of the line with it. I’m feeling fine, holding down a job and in internship coming up. I think the only thing it helps me with is going to sleep, which i knock out in 10 mins now instead of 100 mins.

I’m feeling okay…

but why do I have the feeling like that’s the glue.

I don’t want everything that I’m doing to be based on medication I take for a disease I can’t help. I have grown, not the meds.

Argh! I don’t know what I need to do, but I may be already leaning to a side..

The Dark Knight Rises

so I got the opportunity I wanted and now I’m just waiting for it to happen.
Mentally,?I’m a clutter fuck. I can’t really put things together in my mind because of the great opportunity and me worrying about life in general , but I HOPE HOPE my mind can get it together.

I am also smoking ….so you know how that goes.

My medicine has been working still….I guess. I can’t tell anymore if I’m just numb to my brain or it’s working. I need to do a little more looking into this. Hell! If Minot crying and my mind isn’t running I should be okay right??!!

I hope all of you are okay! The BipolarBlogger Network reminded me that I need to blog more because it not only helps me but other as all. I can’t forgot my awesome blog as awesome bloggers that I love.

Please bear with me! I am having a crazy life right now and never meant to go anywhere!

Gone dark

I’ve gone dark.

I haven’t written anything in a while and well…that’s a good thing.

I told you I was going to school now and making things happen in my life instead of waiting.

I miss writing and hopefully will get back to it soon. I’m just getting some things under my belt :)

Starting A Dream

Starting nail school tonight and I am so excited! I’m  excited to finally be doing something that I am excited to do, and something for myself.

You don’t know this about me, but I love nails! I love everything about it and I have been thinking about getting my license for a long time. Now I finally am doing it and I feel really happy about it.

I’ve finally found something that I love and hopefully will love me back.

Just a good day :)

…and I never have those!

LINK: Lawyer: Vallejo kidnapping suspect Matthew Muller suffers from bipolar disorder

http://kron4.com/2015/07/17/lawyer-vallejo-kidnapping-suspect-matthew-muller-suffers-from-bipolar-disorder/
So if you have a mental illness, go out and kill someone, your lawyer will use that in your defense!

Come on!!

This is why mental illness is such a horrible thing in the eyes of the world. People shouldn’t use that as a defense and if it true and that’s why you killed people…then you don’t need a lawyer, you need help.

Good old fashion H E L P

Good luck, solider l!

This is normal, right?!

i just read somewhere that having anger or sad feelings are a normal part of life and that having them shouldn’t make you feel so extreme because they are there and will always be there! You also shouldn’t worry about getting rid of them because they are a normal part of the brain and life.

Follow me?!?

Maybe My brain is telling me something is coming? Or that something needs to be done. It is right! Something need to be done but not with my feelings, with my life. I don’t know how I’m going to do it but my anger has to be a sign for something inside or out of myself.

I wonder if my mediciation has changed my anger in anyway?

I’m thinking about stopping it…

Hmmm…